MY MARATHON STAY IN KUWAIT AND VOLUNTARILY RETIREMENT.
It is now 10 long years of my voluntarily retirement from
Kuwait where I worked
for a lengthy period since I returned from Kuwait to my
roots in Goa and since I left
K uwait for Goa for good. Since I returned to Goa I am living peacefully with normal
health though not perfect and that it is deteriorating as
days go by is a big trauma,
however Inspite of failing health here and there I still feel that God has blessed me
with good health which is a big asset not only for me but
for everyone when he is not
having. However, so
many friends and colleagues of ours are suffering for not having good
health while so many others at the tender age only dead and
gone. For this gratitude of God
I will never forget.
Earlier when I was a little younger in age and also weak in
physical fitness and when I had no
issue with my health, I did not take serious care of my body
neither externally nor internally
where all my body organs are
safely banked. With all my Health
hazards I am still surviving of course by the grace of God without Him nothing
good will come. I must thank my wife
Fatima FOR assisting me to do my work at home.
But how long will she take pressure of me? It Is very hard to look after a bed ridden patient who is needing round the clock attention. Many of my other unknown companions are sadly living as non-entities neglected by their nearest and dearest including their closest family members. It is a real pity to see some of them who are crying for attention from t\heir family members. They are now suffering because time has fooled them, it would have been better if they had to see their end on this planet instead of unending suffering. But God has its own plans for which we have to surrender. They are constantly whispered in their ears by their children that they are making arrangement to shift them to Old Aged House that is Azilo which place is disliked by them, why them only? It is disliked by every one but when you attain the old age you lose your commanding power reaching to a level of non-entity and a source of taunt, humiliation, insults but there are others who love the life in an Old House and they prefer to spend their last days in the Azilos instead of their own houses which they built by giving their blood and sweat working tirelessly days and nights.
Inspite of citing my philosophies on this topic, when you
attain the earlier unseen and also earlier experienced Old Age life, you must
be ready for the disastrous life. At
momet it looks better that you be ready to bid Adieu to this World. But here again your age level is controlled
by the same Almighty God where we have no role to play, it is in the domain of God. I am no doubt thankful to God for keeping me
healthy and surviving while many of those who were with me during the last 70 +
years as friends, relatives, colleagues etc, some of them are injured, others
are crippled their limbs and hence bed ridden.
While some others afflicted with some other deadly diseases. While they are suffering I am at least far While with the grace of God
I am far better praying to God to give
them full recovery.
And God the Lord, I know my day is not far but Oh Lord the
God, give me opportunity to
Spend my last days in peace.
A.VERONICA FERNANDES.